I have no pictures to offer you today for what I feel, so if you would like to take the time to read what I have to say then thank you, and if not... that's ok too. Yesterday I was a follower... and I'm a little ashamed of it. I tend to panic as it is and with the north east being what it is right now I couldn't help but listen to the rumors, turn on my mama bear instinct, and feel the need to protect my family.
It sucks to be a grown up when it comes to emergency matters. Growing up your taken care of, someone else makes all the decisions and you are completely comforted in that. It's when you become the mom and dad making the decisions and making the choices that reality sinks in. Growing up is hard!
When your watching a movie or show on the the television it's easy to just watch and say that won't ever happen, or something like that could not even resemble what's happening or will ever happen in my life... but when it does, then well it's personal now isn't it? Even as I write this I don't know quite how I feel or how to put it into words but I know by the end of this post and getting it out that I will have figured it out. My words and my thoughts will get me there. I don't know if my panic and restless uneasiness is warranted, over reacting, or soon will be warranted... and I don't think I can be the only one feeling this way. I just know I'm not alone.
What I do know is this... people are freaking out and that is never the first ingredient of a good recipe. Add power outages, limited grocery stores, and dwindling gas supplies and you can bet the recipe is going to get hotter than a ghost pepper hanging off Satan's red tongue. And you know why? because each and every one of those things are essentials. That's why I understand right now why people are mean... and why the gas stations are lined out into the streets.
Because we are spoiled, including myself.
It's time to not be greedy... not the time to waste, or throw out the remains of your dinner because you have a problem eating left overs. It's time to only pour half a glass of milk when you know in reality you won't finish the entire glass had you poured it to the top. Now is time to lend a hand to your neighbor, offer your shower to a friend who's still without power. Now is the time to put out to others, because putting out will bring back the good stuff. Karma... living right... being human.
Yesterday I stocked my fridge and freezer, it brought me comfort and it brought me just a little bit of piece in this chaotic period of thinning ice. I watched other shoppers rudely stand in the middle of isles, not moving over for those behind them. I took note of folks buying non necessities like magazines, candy bars, and panty hose. Please people, if you don't need it... if you don't need to get out, please don't. Those of us who truly need supplies to stock our homes and feed our families don't need the hassle or attitude you bring with you to the stores and parking lots.
It is now peering from the outside in that I see just how utterly careless we all are... again I too am guilty.
But yesterday I bought only what I needed and I bought it the gigundous size. When I tell you that I now have a container of ketchup to last the year (or 2 weeks knowing my boys), well I sure do! I bought large packages of meat and frozen vegetables which I then brought home and organized into ziploc bags, respectively portioned for each meal I will need to make. Waste not, want not. Stocking up meant saving gas and preventing unnecessary trips back out. It keeps me and my children away from the panicking crowds. They don't need to see that right now, and frankly I don't either. This kind of craziness panics me, drives my anxiety around like a bumper car at the local fair. I become irrational and mean just like the masses out there probably punching each other in the face for gas.
IF you don't need the gas, IF you have the gas... don't go top off. Let the people who commute to the city get their gas, get the nurses taking care of the elderly fill their tank... for gods sake let the doctors, EMS, fire squad, and Orange and Rockland workers fill up. Get the gas you need for the week but good God if you don't need to go out on the weekend, don't. Save it.
All I'm saying here is be sparing. If people could get by years and years ago with little, we can do it again. Make your dinners at home - don't go out. Buy a FULL load of groceries instead of a few nights supplies. It's the little things that will matter in the end right now.
The world goes in cycles and this is part of the cycle. My mom in law said to me last night "We did this in the 70's dad and I. It's no big deal... we waited for gas and we got it, it will pass". At first, in my head I was skeptical saying to myself that yeah yeah that was then this is NOW... but she's right, It's no big deal if you don't make it one. So pull yourself away from the panic... I know I have to, and I will. I will trust what my husband tells me and keep my kids away from the hype. I will put on my carnival ears to the rumors... you know, where I put my fingers in my ears and la la la to the sound of a carnival tune? yeah, that one!
Around our dinner table last night we talked about what it is to waste, what it is to want, and what it is to now the difference. Of course it's going to take a couple discussions and reminders to teach this... as my middle son and oldest fought over the last meatball (homemade by the way). If we don't step back NOW and take a big wide unselfish look at the world it's gonna be a dog eat dog kinda place.